I still miss him.

Sometimes, when I'm laying in bed, for the couple moments right before I fall asleep.
When I'm shaving, making room for someone to be shaving by me that's not there.
While driving and I expect a hand on my thigh.
To puke out some random show quote to him, just to have him complete it.
When I feel someone looking at me, I turn around, and it's not him.
At times I feel my heart yearning for something I can't give it.

I really, really miss him.

And it happened on a Monday!

This is my last week of work, and I have nothing lined up for after it other than unemployment.
This is the most depressing thing ever! Except for breaking the ex's nose on my car.
But this is a close second.

A vacation is nice, but I'm praying that I don't fall insane.
A job with money would be nice, but good luck trying to solve that enigma.
Can't run away from this one, either. Not saying that I would.
But I totally would.

If I get past the next 2 months, I can get past all of '09!